Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Failure?

It's rare in life to have a relationship with God; furthermore, the depth of your relationship with HIM depends on how well you can preserve in painful situations. I love that God uses situations in life to let you know the battle is not over. Usually when hurt comes into my life I would look into myself and try to find what I can do to make the situations right. It's not uncommon for me to enter into a state of insecurity and question my life, my looks, and my challenges. I've never really liked myself; I'd wish I had a different personality at times. Now, I guess I have to deal with it. I guess I have to enter this change of my life with a different mind-set; I'm worth it.

God is infinite; there is enough of HIM to go around even when the ones you love don't care to share themselves. I'm learning this concept slowly but surely. It's hard to look at myself in the mirror sometimes and see the person I've become. It's even harder when I'm rejected because of the very thing I don't like about myself. I'm just in a state of pain and confusion right now. Thank God for his relationship! If I didn't have HIM I'd probably be drinking again. I've made a vow to myself and God to run…

Run with patience and strength,

Look beyond my adversity and see triumph.

Run with diligence and love,

Fight the good fight with the help of understanding.

Run with heart and soul,

Continuing to become a testimony of perseverance.

Just Run…

And not look back!

When all else fails I don't have anyone but God and me. With all of my insecurities and pain, baby, I'm gonna run because when I fail I know there is no failure in God!!!!

Until Next Time!

Blessed Be!!!

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