"The language must be careful and appear effortless. It must not sweat. It must suggest and be provocative at the same time." Toni Morrison
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Flash Fiction: The Soaring
Love: Once Removed
To harvest wisdom..
The esteem of me,
-- this is my goal.
I Am That I Am... Even if I'm alone...
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Sunday, July 11, 2010
You Are Here
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Paralyzed: An Ode to Toni Morrison

This gift to give names to noun?
A fine gift to make adjectives successors?
Will you?
And if unwrapped notice the gift is familiar.
Words you've written, I've read and altered very little.
They have not made a void returned, you see?
Therefore, with pleasure to undue my commonness, I bind these words and present them to you.
I have buried my mind in deep holes of God's schemes, longing for my name.
And was flattered when my moons were brightened and prophesied through teeth of preaching elders with smooth hands.
With this, is it strange my name was found in death?
At the dancing feet of a mother on fire?
Verily my name unfolded in Sula's stillness.
As the fire sparks that embraced her mother greeted Sula's open eyes.
T'was on that page of Hannah's last breath a revealing of my birth; a reason.
I was born to write.
The convincing part is I'd watched Hannah burning not because I was paralyzed...
...but because I was interested.
Will you accept a gift?
... to give folly importance?
... to give names to noun?
... to allow me to be your successor?
Friday, July 9, 2010
The Pie
On the table there's a dish...
On that dish... a piece of pie sits.
See it?
The green dish.
No, the other one.
The one garnished with the small olive branch?
See it?
Yes, that one.
Its yours.
It took a few broad laborious scores to make that pie.
Humble.
The sundry ingredients were harmoniously contrary:
- Diced apology
- A thimble of sugar
- One fourth cup of flour
- A tablespoon of shame
- And honey, a finger full directly from the angry hive
In a foggy bowl they were given into marriage.
A mixing... my mixing... through my palm's laboring strokes.
Soft strokes.
...which continued until time held her breath.
Or truth choke her.
Something was absence.
So....
I ceased the mixing and place the bowl in the clearing and waited all night until...
The morning...
... when the clearing led to a pantry behind the dawn.
A discovery.
A large bottle labelled PRIDE, which I moved aside and there it was...
A smaller bottle same to the larger with brown, black, and green label, however.
With a name ending in two R's.
I opened the top and inhaled.
Mmm... Smells nice.
The bottle's content was a secret.
The missing link.
I finished...
And now it's finally done for you.
An humble pie.
Only we know the mystery.
Our own language.
I see you smiled at the "two R's".
I made it for you baby.
It took scores.... baked slow.
Real slow...
Look on that dish.
No, not that one, the other one.
The green one --
... with the olive branch.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Fantasia - Control Freak (Music Video [Fan-Made])
Monday, June 14, 2010
I Need You To Survive
Typically our prayer are self-centered demands to God to rid of us of all the trials and tribulations come upon us so we can live a stress free life. Get over it!!!! You are not going to live a stress free life in a selfish world; it's crazy to think it. Therefore, why don't we think of our struggles as a milestone to greatness or an apex of merit only we can conquer in order to be qualified candidates to fulfill the destiny set before us? Let's use our prayers as weapon of warfare. We don't struggle against humanity but we struggle against the spiritual puppeteers encamped about us. That's why it's so hard for us to do good things, because, "when [we] think to do good, evil is ever present."
I have an idea:
Why don't we collectively use our prayer a weapons of mass protection. Unselfishly bridge the gap between our unpaid light bills and the woman struggling with the issue of abortion. Selflessly transforming our Thank You Jesus into I Appreciate What You've Already Done!
I don't know, maybe it's a weird concept, but I think it might work. How better to touch God than to act selflessly? Dr. King did with the power of his assassination and became as prominent as any American figure to date. The slaves exemplified it by Stealing Away to Jesus in an attempt to gain northern bound freedom. Christ even did it with the redemption of Calvary!
Am I being too preachy? Is preachy even a word? Maybe! I just want to live in a world where I feel at peace knowing someone is praying for me, because I'm praying for you. I hope you find comfort in knowing I want you to be o.k. I got an idea I think would work:
I pray for you?
You pray for me!
Because, I love you...
I need you to survive!
Until Next Time!
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Butterscotch

As a child I was fascinated by the melody of candy
2was a sweet rhythm in tune with the harmony in my young heart.
Someone has caught the nostalgia of candy's era
My fascination has been restored in grooves of:
A motion
A gaze
A statement of reassurance
Newness!
I can taste the sugar speck
One so good I tilt my head softly and breeeeathe
Close my eyes and induuulge
Release a declaration of jubilation:
"I love this candy!"
Recalling my memory of...
A childhood long forgotten
A tomorrow I didn't want to face but must conquer.
My future's in this candy,
Somewhere in the newness of it's arrival
I wasn't expecting but it came like a thief in the night
My soul was afire and it blew a cool wind in my burning soul
It motioned to me a 'come hither' wave
Gazed at me with a look of love
Lectured deliverance to my heart
Mmmm...
Inside of this candy was the answer to:
My Whys!
My Woes!
My Whats!
Within the dream was the sweetness of sugar; nevertheless, the outside is hard and comes in the form of
ButterScotch …
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Aaliyah - Rock The Boat (@B_Ames Remix)
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Whitney Houston - You Give Good Love (B_Ames Vogue Remix)
He's enormously talented and becoming a quick favorite of mine. Not because his vogue mixes slay but he has an ear for it. The ear to compose makes him special. Most surprising, he's not famous, which is hard to believe due to his genius. He is also a good person. I merely asked if he could remix Whitney Houston's "You Give Good Love," and he's completed the track in two days. What a good person!
Friday, June 4, 2010
When Friendship Goes Bad!
To me, friendship has solid importance. To be take as serious as any other situation of love. My relationships with my siblings are air-tight (that's us in the above picture). Perhaps the seriousness is rooted there. The premise of my relationships, personal or intimate, was solidified by my siblings. For it is by this dynamic I'd found my place in the scheme of life. Therefore, the creation of friendship, for me, is mirrored by the paradigm of family. It is gold. And a portion of my spirit enters into the relationship tying us by the confidence of love and selflessness. If by the name 'friend' I address, then I consider this 'friendship' set apart from the rest. Something like holiness.
Without question, a share of disappoint is given in unions with attached emotions; none are exempt. Disappointment may not be voluntarily conjured but the comfortable parts of man finds inconvenience in compromise. Moreover, it is clear even friendships are affected with degrees of turbulence. I know and am use it. But there is one friendship in my life that seems wasted with a lack of consideration.
The moral of the story is simple:
Friendship is responsibility. Responsibilities are as priorities. If the balance of this priority is heavy or can't be handled with fairness, for the sake of all involved; LEAVE IT BE! Disappointment is a marker of a heart wounded.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Nicki Minaj - Massive Attack (@B_Ames Remix)
Friday, May 7, 2010
Love Looks Like Wal-Mart
1. I went Mother's Day Shopping and those tasks are complete.
Before I allow anyone to use me for even benign motives.
Friday, March 12, 2010
Paula Abdul's American Idol

But...
Is it me or does her absence expose a clear folly at the judges table? No shade to the current panel but Paula Abdul presented a knowing to the panel. A balance. Considering she is performer (regardless the lack of vocal strength), her advice came by the success of her musical relationship with America. Having been a success and a failure, her advice emerged from a different place of observation and proved to be beneficial.
"Your lower register is your money. Use that," she'd say. "There was joy in that performance. Keep the joy but try another emotion." I enjoyed her actual advice.
Currently, we have Kara saying, "You should have sung something by Rihanna or Beyonce." Excuse me? Don't do that! When advice comes by example people will chose by that limitation, especially contestants who are vulnerable and desire to please. Everyone doesn't have the articulation of Beyonce or the stage presence of Rihanna. These kinds of comparison murder individuality. Allow them to choose their song and suck on their own. Judge only that performance and move on. These tactics have even filtered into Simon's comments, "I wish I was picking your songs for you." Why? Don't do that?
I choose sinking my own ship and reflecting my own craziness and wouldn't whole-heartedly take advice from judges who listen by the ear of entertain and not vocal structure. Just tell me I sucked and lower the song's key. Don't tell me I sucked but I would suck less if I'd sung Aeorsmith.
Don't do that!
Whitney Houston - Lights and A Mic
There are sections in history when musical importance was the only importance. An artist could mount platforms with three background singers, a piano and sing without the production of dancers. Whitney Houston was this kind of singer. You don't get vocals like this.Music was easy then; simple even. Heartfelt and soulful. Back when singers needed not the grand stage production. Only lights and a mic.
Lady Gaga & Beyonce - Telephone (Video Edit Music Only)
Watching Lady Gaga's video "Telephone" featuring Beyonce was confusing. The music, dancing and imagery was excellent, close to brilliant. The plot structure, however, was (almost) non-existence. If a story isn't clear in the telling, the teller entertains themselves only. So, considering storytelling is important to me, I'm convinced one has to be a fan to understand videos nowadays. No Shade. Over all it was a good video.
Desiring to understand the video I performed an edit. Without speaking parts or abrupt pauses, I wanted to observe the video with music only. I loved it. It is as follows:
Monday, March 8, 2010
#RelationshipRules (Snug Tight)

Well...
Someone who chooses water over soda; ale over liquor; wheat over white. These are examples, not deal breakers. Could I love someone who drinks soda? With certainty. Make a choice, however, which says, "I care."
Someone who (again, snug in the interest of supposing) sees me beyond thought or perspective and as an addition to the sum of their life and not the sum. Indeed, the one I want to love must have inner love. Not narcissism or conceit. Who assesses the cost of self-esteem and pays only in the silent acts of wisdom. You know? The operation of passion.
Someone who lives life as an experience and not a chore. These would be the foundation of my rule for relationships.
Until Next Time
Friday, March 5, 2010
I'm Back (I Think)

So to assist progress, I must write according to universal command. Not by drive, which only matters in passion. But by calling, who needs not match to ignite purpose. The fire of a calling burns because it alone is a flame.
The attempt is to pen the paper either everyday or every other day. Small notions, idea, opinions, judgments, reasonings and the like, which may be no longer than a paragraph but it'll maintain my fire. This is only a goal.
Until Next Time









